That long ago I went into my doctors office (I walked in) and asked "what should I do about this blister on my left "stump?" I was told to stay off of it. I normally would have said what the doc wanted to hear and done my own damned thing. This one time I listened and 8 years 1 month 10 days later I am still staying off of it.
I was talking to a good friend of mine last night and told her I was finally feeling that thing everyone thought I would be feeling. Just not around the time they were thinking, year one, but a little longer than that. I am the slow zebra after all. I am feeling incarcerated. I have had bouts of this and that (this = depression, that = everything else) but nothing this strong. I have had opportunity to get that damned leg of mine for about 6 months and I am not sure why I have not just done it. It may be fear that I am not going to be able to do what I have dreamed/fantasized about doing (no, not having street/sidewalk intersection sex while the don't walk sign if flashing) but just plain old walking. I used to be afraid of almost everything there was to be afraid of in the past. My friend Abbott pointed that fact out to me one day (not in the nicest way, but I needed to hear it, so the ends justified the means on that one). So being afraid now kind of just pisses me off! I say this here because I am gearing up to remedy this (leg issue) this week. I may not be walking tomorrow but I will have appointments set and shoes to try on.
What are some of your fears? What can be done to overcome them, if they can be overcome. Don't be afraid to share them with us here, we don't bite, hard.
Yeah well, you aren’t the only one. I (and lots of people, that you know) am/are afeared too.
Everyday I don’t do stuff I want to do for fear of doing it wrong or not good enough. Everyday I think about people I know and what I should do for/with/around them and so often don’t.
Everyday I’m mired in my own quagmire of inaction because I’m worried about what people will think. The irony there of course is the part where they don’t care enough to be thinking about me in the first place!
I also sometimes know these things and just press ahead with what seems like the right thing to do and low and behold it usually is the right thing after all.
And that’s how I get anything done.
Arri, I actually look to you for inspiration at times. I see you taking on the frozen Tundra and how you do so much for other people, even at the expense of your own time or time off. You got me hooked on that bike as well! The cool thing is you don’t expect a lot from any of us and you are always there waiting and with that great sense of humor and warm thoughts. I would never have figured you would have any fears like I did. I guess we are more alike than I thought. I hope your fears are lifted as easily as you help lift mine.
My fear is, heights, and the duality of man…
The duality of man…